Tuesday, October 22, 2013

I Kid You Not...





When you are traveling alone in a bus, flight or train the next seated co-passengers often catch your attention. You have a book in hand pretending to read, your headset repeating those songs that you have heard several times, or sleep which in this case shd be ideal but becomes a distant pal. You terribly fell like having a company in the company of so many unknown souls.
I am anyways a distracted soul. My eyes when open are always moving. As soon as I land in a place, my eyes do a quick scan of the surroundings and if something catches its fancy, it makes me looking back to it again and again. A handsome guy, a beautiful saree, a trendy outfit, fashionable bags & of course the sweet little kids & toddlers are some of the things I never happen to miss when out.
Talking of kids, its always nice to have them around and can be the best en-route time pass. If they like you they will themselves start touching your bag or peep into your mobile phone and most of the times even talk to you. And if they happen to dislike you, they would just dislike you no matter how hard you try to impress them. No pretenses there and isn’t it why we all looooove kids?

So coming back to traveling, I was recently going solo in a train. 03 hours were not very difficult to pass given the fact that I had a book to finish. Apart from some people, rest were traveling in families. On my left was a gentleman traveling alone like me and on my right was a family of husband, wife & their daughter. A kid around was surely not going to be boring I knew. Having guessed her age to be around 03 yrs I gave her a quick glance before proceeding to read.
                                                   
She looked quiet & all poised as she took her seat next to her dad.  At that time I didn’t want much distraction & wanted to finish the book asap. But someone was just not agreeable to this peace treaty. Within minutes this kid made her presence felt in the coach. Jumping, running in the alley and screaming away she was a kid literally announcing her arrival to the people. She even made some of them get off their seats to see her. Had their parents not come to her rescue, she would have managed to make the passengers run after her to stop. I cant even imagine that happening in real, but yes it was that crazy.
Anyways she settled in some time, thanks to her father for coming up with some game of sorts. I resumed my reading but was constantly distracted with her blabbering. Well yes, kids at that age do talk a lot, but this one was just ‘talking nineteen to the dozen’.

My glances gradually became more frequent at her as she kept chattering away. She was spoken to in English by her parents & she too managed to speak very well for her age. She was constantly speaking – of almost anything under the sun and had a way of relating things & weaving stuff almost like an raconteur. I was silently watching her and may I admit wondering at her spooking energy levels & such a liking to storytelling. Saanvi as I learnt the name from her conversations with her parents was a character at that point of time more interesting than the ones in the book. Between talking & playing & disturbing the quiet souls of the coach – she quickly caught me staring at her.

“Hello” she started.
“Oh ! Hi!!” I replied pretending to not have noticed her till now.

“Can I touch you?” she asked casually to which I said “No, you should not. You might get a shock” I murmured.
“Shock? What is that? She questioned & I gave her a quick demo of how when you touch something (electrical) you just shiver…
“So that  is shock, understood? But then you can touch me coz I was joking” I said to her relief.
A wide grin just lit up her face and she continued “Can I touch your earrings?”
“Yes you can?” I said pretending to get back to my book.
She touched my earrings couple of times all happy & gay and then very innocently asked “Can I break it?”
“What?” “Break” “NO”! I was suddenly serious & the chick was giggling away to the glory.


{background speech went like this – “No Saanvi! Bad girl! do not talk like that! Say sorry to aunty and sit back! Do you want to eat chips? Pls have some juice? ………….blah blah blah }

She was pulled back to her seat where she could barely be for 02 mins and was back standing at the alley with half the body tilted to my side.

“Do you have mamma – papa?” she asked. I nodded to which came her next question “How many?”
“I will tell you but first tell me how many do you have?” I quizzed to see the expression on her parents face.
“ I have one mama & one papa”
“Wow! So do I. Same pinch”

{Background – Silly Sanvi! What do you ask? What do you learn in school?}

“Oh, you go to school?” I happened to ask knitting my brows to give a rather interested-to-know-more-about-you look.
“No I am very small.” Oh! How much they love attention!

{Background – Saanvi you liar!}

My book was way too insulted. With over 02 hours gone by – merely 05 pages were turned. So I decided to close it while dinner was being served. Saanvi dearest’s mouth was still in action not with words but with food this time. I ate the full meal at half the time she took to finish half of the meal.
Having finished dinner, I started twiddling my thumbs. Didn’t want to get back to the book so started to play “angry birds” on phone. Between shots I did shift my gaze to her once in a while, reflecting on how cute she looked & how happy she indeed made her parents, on how nicely she spoke & at the age of 03 or 04 something she could so easily comprehend & speak English correctly.

There you go………. she caught me again. Having done with the dinner – she tilted again and peeped into my phone.

“Hey you are playing angry birds”, she announced jumping from her seat.
“Hmmmmm” I affirmed.

“Papa – give me your phone. I want to play angry bird.”
{Background – No Saanvi, just sit back, we are going to get down in a while so no playing now.}

“No mama, I want to play. Pls Papa give me your phone…give me your phone ..errrr”

The terrorized parents had to give in before her voice could get more louder. She played and showed me that she too knew this game making me think how common “angry bird” is. Ise toh Bachha Bachha jaanta hai.

Everyone was getting ready as the train was about to enter the last station. She looked at my trolley bag & said “ Can I touch this”? “Will I get shock? HaHaHa!” She giggled.
Attempting to pull the trolley, she quietly asked “Can I break it?”

{Background – Saanvi enough! You are disturbing aunty too much, come back, we are about to reach}

Who can shout more than that when you have a child who is smiling as you are chiding her. No eyes rolling, no tears flowing, no fear factor trick works with her it seemed.

Finally we reached and as we were getting ready to come off the couch one by one, I said bye to her & her parents.
The smiling beauty came in front of my face, looking into my eyes, holding my fingers – ready with her next question “Can I talk to you in Hindi?”

{background – Come on Salvi, we need to get down?”}

She continued without paying any heed as we kept moving towards the exit. She was pulled by her dad whereas still holding my fingers.
“No tell me, can I talk to you in Hindi?” She demanded

“Yes Darling, but fast. We have to get down” I rushed.

“Tera naam Kya hai?” she inquired.
Ok, so she still doesn’t know much about the difference between tera, tumhara & aapka. She was hardly spoken to in hindi you see – I reflected.
Now it was almost their turn to get down but she continued
{Background – Come Saanvi – we got to go. Say Byee to aunty}

No she is not telling me.

Tell me , tell me “Tera naam kya hai?”
“We-e-ell my name is…………..is………”
“No in Hindi” she shouted
“Ok. Mera Na-a-am!”
“Mera Na-a-am!”
“Mera Na-a-am hai!” I drawled bit more

The darling angel at the top of her voice then said “Tera naam Kya hai Basanti?”
Stumped I looked at her in disbelief. I mean did she just say that.

{background – hahahahahahahahahahahaha!}
And I was rolling on the floor, my ass off with tears in my eyes (read literally) as she got down the couch and went dragged almost like a luggage by her dad.
She waved me & I quickly gave her a flying kiss. Slowly the smiling beauty disappeared in the crowd leaving me smiling for the next few days as I shared this with my friends & family. All had a good laugh and thus smiles multiplied courtesy Saanvi :):):)

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Life is still good!!

Life in a way has been staring at me with eyes open, watching how I would handle the pain and the suffering it had thrown on my face. Smirking at me and teasing me. Telling me that this pain is way too big for you to not succumb to it, to not be depressed, to not have a breakdown.

"When did you become this harsh to me?" I asked LIFE - my mouth agape, my nerves shivering and my heart pumping the loudest ever.
It made inane conversations with me with a blithe ignorance of my pain. "You have a problem" it denounced and made sure that it would remain in my mind every micro second that I live, every damn place that I go to and every bit of reason that I could smile at. It picked up all the positives in my mind and argued its existence. It didn't stop there. It tried to drown me into this deep pool of guilt and ensured I couldn't wade across.
 My tears as and when they came, LIFE celebrated!
It was succeeding step by step as I was slowly wearing away. With its usual nonchalance it danced in front of my eyes waiting for my next move of giving in. 
As I became more helpless & cowed, LIFE gnawed at me!! 
I was coming closer bit by bit, about to press the button "Submit".

Just then - I was suddenly embraced. 
I couldn't look back as he had hugged me tight. I struggled to set myself free but he did not allow. My plaintive cry was fast subdued as his palms reached for my mouth and closed it. For the next 30 seconds, we remained like this. With he not loosing an inch of his grip and with me still fighting my tears and gasping for air.

Embraced with love and faith he eventually could quell the unrest of my mind. The cyclone had begun to settle and he came in front of me, sitting and looking at my face without a word. He looked like an angel sent by GOD to weather this storm and to bring me back to LIFE that I knew. His eyes reassured the good and I started to believe all he had to say. With that opened a placid rivulet of hope meandering smoothly through my soul and lifting my spirits.That was the moment of strength with which I looked back at LIFE. It was still waiting for me to surrender with open arms. I turned around and thwarting his hopes pressed "refresh". 
And with that LIFE failed to fail me!!
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It has been an emotionally draining year for me. No wonders that I could not come home to blogging for this long. After dealing with hopes & despair and coming to terms with the nasty truths, I intend to come back to this beautiful world of my own. And as I say this I am overwhelmed with the gratitude of what I have (read family) than the remorse of what LIFE doesn't wish to offer.
It takes a lot to come out of a bad patch with all the sanity and trying to live life just as normally like you. But I am trying........trying to dream, to hope , to plan and to respect the fact that 'everything is not meant for everyone'.
See you around in this unbelievable journey called LIFE!